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Well....today was my ultrasound. I tossed and turned all night and didn't get much sleep from being so nervous and anxious of what today may hold. Mom, dad, and Tara went with me this morning for my ultrasound and we received my worst nightmare. Dr. Perloe didn't see a baby. He said that it was possibly an unsuccessful pregnancy and I may have possibly already miscarried. He was worried it may even be an eptopic pregnancy (where the baby is growing in my tubes..which is still not a good thing). I was devastated. I was numb. I was speechless and just wanted to be alone for a few hours. The past few weeks I noticed a few of the pregnancy symptoms (the achy breasts, nausea, extreme fatigue) had stopped. I bought some at home pregnancy test hoping it would ease my mind. I told one last week and one this Monday and both were positive, so I thought maybe I was one of the lucky ones who doesn't get sick. My nurse called this afternoon with my blood results and said that Dr. Perloe said it wasn't a tubal pregnancy and my levels had increased since the last time they checked a few weeks ago. They would have liked them to be a little higher though. They told me to stay on my medication for another week and I go back in a week to recheck and do another ultrasound. There is a slim chance that maybe it was too early. I technically would be 7 weeks tomorrow and I know most women don't normally go until they are at lease 8 weeks. Who knows...I guess we will have yet another hopeful  and nerve wrenching week and see what next Wednesday holds for us. Thanks everyone for being there every step of the way for us...it means so much to us!

Until next time....

-BLT